Famished & Admitting It
“If you don't feel strong desires for the manifestation of the glory of God, it is not because you
have drunk deeply and are satisfied. It is because you have nibbled so long at the table of the world. Your soul is stuffed with small things, and there is no room for the great.”
O God of my life, I'm lovesick for you in this weary wilderness. I thirst with the deepest longings to love you more, with cravings in my heart that can't be described. Psalm 63:1 TPT
God promised to encounter those who "seek me with all your heart." Our Lord Jesus promised satisfaction to those who "hunger and thirst after righteousness." Psalmists expressed it numerous ways:
"For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things"
"As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?"
"The young lions suffer want and hunger; but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing."
Recently I have repented. I recognized that I had stopped hungering for God, that I was satisfied at the current level of God's presence and power in my soul. He meets us at the level of our hunger, at the place, if you will, of our desperate hearts. When I stop expressing, "More Lord, I need more of you," he stopped releasing his presence. Can we handle the idea that God meets us at the point of our need, the need that we will express/say to him? Have you and I taken for granted a certain level of Jesus' manifest presence in our hearts, and chosen to "camp" there? Reminder: a lady with a long-term chronic blood issue was desperate -- when, in her desperation, she touched Jesus' clothes, she was healed. And he said, "Your faith has made you well." He saw her desperation and called it faith. I am developing a holy dissatisfaction with how deeply I am experiencing Jesus. I am stretching, saying, "I know I can do nothing without you, I need more and more of you. Expand my heart, and fill it -- then expand it once again, so you can fill it even
further. Color me desperate, needy, thirsty.
I urge you to consider this: your heart and soul needs more of God than you currently
experience. Tell him that; ask for more of Himself. Give your heart to him again and again to be filled and refilled with his Spirit, love and kindness. I am hungry, I am thirsty for more of You. Sing it, say it, live it.